More than Words !

What is the possibility of the mysterious impossibilities, the pure definitions’ of non-dimensional entities, representations of the cosmic power of realities, the designation of the all perceiving antiquities. The segmented whole of non-existing unity, magnitude of life expressed mathematically, the artificial construction of "higher space" mentality, existential liberation of living cell energy . The rotating wheel of life creating subjectivity, combination of positivist philosophy failing bitterly, the justified measures creating laws about individuality, manifestation of what we call the ultimate reality .

When on my way to the home called "life", I learned that lots of things are upright. The orchestra of what we call living, The fragmented play of the divine strings . The foolishness just seems to boastfully smile , but my blue sky denies all those silly lies. Sometimes it seems life is lost in the land of Reverie , the greatest maze of LIFE LONG FEAR called SUFFERING. The six stage of life, moving toward the ultimate height, the final step toward the emptiness, the free insight. The frenzy encounter of the  paradoxical mind, NIRVANA , the ultimate stage toward the,                      life of paper burning down to life less life.

While my ways turning their back on me, And I trying to escape from the balcony, The hallucinations started sucking me again, Now my entire being was present at the presence! Somehow, I was singing with thermodynamics Dancing with Astrophysics and flirting with ethics, trying to learn robotics and listening unusual lyrics, Everything started happening at once, with mind as critics! Call it a calculative madness or call it a cunning miracle, The reality boasting about itself in the illusions circle, Life whispering in my ears, telling me to witness the unreal, Untying knots of the deepest hidden dimensional hemisphere! The deeper i go, the tiny most second looks like an eternal lifetime, I get a violent oppositions from everyone who are talking about time, Laughing to myself I fly with the mysteries of mysteries’ by my side, Someday in someway someone will go crazy like me,             ...

I was reading about Telsa, The hero behind alternating current, as soon as the things got deeper, I was having hallucinations geared! I was losing my grip over myself, I felt like i was Telsa working high, Everything was upside down stumbling, I was trying to convince who am I? Constantly the force was pulling me aside, I was feeling as if, i was being sucked side by side, I was being synced beyond my physical body, I could see lights, lights and beyond lights study! And all of a sudden my understanding took a turn, I knew things beyond a common understanding, I was stunned by these new dimensions of being, The whole (world crisis) started looking stupid to me. The geometric center of my life was shifted, I had new words, visions, ideas and understanding, I tried to explain this to others as much as i could, but i was left as a mad diluted  schizophrenic  ( having no roots ).

Do not break the seeds, to see the trees living in it, Do not operate the body, to know the souls reality! How silly can it get? People searching for life's secret, How hilarious can it get? watching the dog, trying to pull its tail !

As you start to sing , The fire of mind,  blows out To the silent,  self less mind. The stomach bursts with tears, No one can feel this way, it feels like the mother womb, carrying some other life in a way. As you take your height, Tunes taking twists and turns, I slowly get orgasms , in each countable neurons. How can i ever explain this, these imprints which you create in my soul, no mind, no time and no space exists, this is the quantum union of universal soul. Your voice touches me there, erasing all my silly egoistic fears, life now really seems eternal, you create magic in my atmosphere.   

I am just a rubber pencil, the love writes me down, plays a flute out of me, makes me her paper sky, and turns me upside down ! I just wait and watch, what she does next, she just  blows me with the wind, as the paper plane,  then she holds me, and brings me back again !  loves the water, unchangable and free, even the fire dries down, when she is with him, Now who am I not to be, i go down in her ectasy !!

Nudiustertian, we were only a cell, now the form, has started to age! Wonderer, moves to the jungle of mind, clueless of the things he has got inside! Agonous, to find something called life, in the brume of his own silly lies! The me chantages the I, the epithymy of so called flower of mind! And at last, the nocency of mind, Kills all forms of what is called the I !!

The light grounds on shadows, but no one gives shadows its place to reside, hunted in every corner of the universe Shadows need shadows to hide !! Shadows, so magnificent, so pure has got no one to call her for a summer super, Shadows, the mother who gave birth to light, is left out on a chilling night,  to make her suffer and die!! But everyday she comes with her warmth, looks after every single being  with her compassionate touch, mends, builds and rearranges  everything with her love, but as everyone wakes up,  she is kicked out of her life Shadows need shadows to hide !!

Long was his life, misery and sorrow, but finally he crossed all those steps, Days and nights, don't exist anymore, now its only about being right here, right now!! Buddha, a sleeping possibility in own-self, Buddha-hood the birthright of every existence, Go ahead and find your feathers and  fly high, material values, the metal cage, do not count anymore!! This is the combination to the universal soul, the flight to the unknown, the gesture of the god, This is right here and right now, flower called life, This is the moment of realization, EN-LIGHTING SOUL ! Happy Budhha Jayanti   "Buddha's Birthday"  to everyone, the day when one of the greatest incarnation took its form. Lets realize his teachings , AAPA DIPO VAWO , which means you only can ignite your own being!!

I am finally realizing, what you want ? slowly trying to fix myself, in your new requirements! Typing texts, not sending them, thinking it will bother you, and you will change your mind, now i am completely paralyzed! I cannot find myself in me, you have taken me away, you have  thrown me away, somewhere i don't exist ! Afraid of losing you now, I am scared of this world, Scared of myself now, I am paralyzed in love somehow !

The truth, flight to the gateway, above the understanding, standing nowhere in the surface. As i see it, or better to say as i not see it, its the processor of every processing, beyond the every molecular movement. The chase of emptiness, Flourishment of  the unflourished, The death of myself, The gateway to the unfelt. Its the birth of the unborn, Birth where there is no body, The body-less birth of myself, The existence of the wholeness. I dissolved in the I. Search dissolved in the Search. Whole dissolve in the Whole. Now, what has remained is the supreme unknown!

No words come to my mind, Its not that there is nothing to say, but don't know what to say! so many things unsaid, so many things untold, but now i have any words, that can come to this world!!

He asked, Do you have the courage to open the box? I had no answer, I wanted to open it my whole life, I was stunned, I was afraid, I did not know what there was! It didn't felt like the accomplishment, I dreamt of. Do i want to open it, I asked myself. And underneath the person I am, the real ONE, The real one started speaking, GO GET IT ! Its your chance, don't fool around , don't sleep anymore! Its time for you to wake up, Its time you must wake up. The show of the earliest drama i knew, My LIFE, suddenly was nothing, i just felt empty, everything i have learnt from day one, day one of my birth, the day one i wore my personality, till today, everything started looking fake, i was blur. Who am i ? the only remaining question of my being Am i the name given to me by my parents? Am i the knowledge that i have accumulated? Am i the reputations that i have earned till today? Am i just the body occupying certain spac...

This may be it, The end of the ending, The start of the beginning, and everything in-between. The climb of the unclimable , The song of the unsung, The darkest of the light, The fight for the right ! THIS MAY BE IT !!

I  am now the phoenix, sleeping in my ashes, no one can see me alive, my existence is not called life. They say I am detached, but this goes beyond attachment, no feathers needed to fly, I am flying higher than mountains. The being evolves to what its made of, rivers flowing and the gardens fragrance, I am not what it seems to be, away from my and your memories. Fly oh bird! Fly high! show them who your are, the pigeons, the owls, show them who you really are! The funny bird smiles, The country of this existence. Fly oh bird! Fly high! Show them its possible for you to fly.   

  They say, something called astral travel exist, I don’t know about that, but when you touch me, My soul gets lifted high above my body, And the vibrational frequency gets out of study! This is the wonderland where very few reach, Fewer get the chance to attach these moments, And in thousand years, there is someone, Who can explain without explaining, this divine symphony! You cannot put it in words and make a book out of it, Without tasteting the butter you cannot get the taste, This is a dreamer’s land, where only dreamers can get, This is beyond every reality that you can ever step! This is not just the enchanted Garden of Eden, With a magical tree bearing the mystical fruit, This is not just the ultimate utopia, Where you can exist without any troublesome root! This is the land of the ultimate emptiness, The very center of the universal soul, This is the land of NIRVANA , Where the candle finally blows out!